Three Zero

Somehow, this 2 little simple numericals seem to get lotsa sensitivity lately. You can bet your money on it.

A fellow blogger had lamented on her hitting the big three -- three zero -- real soon (in a few more days). I remembered I did hit the panic button when I was to reach that point. Did the same when the fourth button was well within touch. In fact, the richter scale inched up. So, I bet there will be earthquake when the big five approaches.

So, what's the deal with three zero?

It is the number in your bank account (in any order).

It is just another number in your report card (of any kind).

It is the time you spend heart and soul to learn another soul.

It is the longest you may ultimately wake up to find you are not alone in this world. Or rather, the best you stay a hermit.

It is the reality that dawns upon you that you are redundant and no longer belong to the tribe.

So, what if you have many other three zeroes in life? The past is a stamp: not to be erased with mutiny. Today is the present of the past. Tomorrow is the embrace of today.

What is so difficult about embracing that? Pride? Ego? How much are they worth? I am totally dumbfounded.

Thus, three zero can be anything under the sun. It is for me to know, for you to find out. Oh, just a little reminder: the truth may be too much to stomach.

p/s 1. Well, your trusty old blog is still the best. You won't get your comment(s) deleted, especially by some one with negative intelligence or perhaps cowardice. Oh yeah, I must remember they are not of the same league.

p/s 2. I don't use bombastic and grandiloquent words. However, I do believe it may prove insufferable to some. Hence, if comprehension tantamounts to climbing Mount Everest, just get lost.

什么是谷底？

我知道今年我犯太岁，运程是属倒霉，可是也不用这么背吧？

上个星期，出席了一个讲座后，乘搭的士回公司。抵达时正准备还了车钱要下车，老天就即刻倾盆大雨。中多多都没那么准 :(。虽然有雨伞，也湿了一大半。

给一个朋友献上迟来的生日祝贺，却成为被“蒜”的机会。简直是狗咬吕洞宾。

种种的小意外，如，切菜却被刀割伤、做任何事都得绕上几个圈才能完成使命、脾气上得超快、思绪很悲观、即使做了很多准备功夫，总是会有程咬金，等等等。

再能沉得住气，我也快爆炸了。。。

救命。。。。。。

Hello 2011

A new year.

Any resolution?

I'm gonna say no. It doesn't matter I have any coz ultimately I'm gonna break them anyway.

Forecast: another busy year for me. Well, not really a good thing for me coz I am tired and I think I am ready for retirement.

Serious?

I am seriously contemplating for it. Hopefully I can work something out by 1H 2011. Hmm...hopefully ne.....

忙

一个都会人的弊病，总爱把“忙”挂在嘴边。可是呢，确实有时候真的，真的很忙，不是赖的。

阿宁最近总爱讲的一句话：生活是较宽裕了，但，就缺了时间。对啊，近来的我们，跟时间不是好朋友。很想出去走走，始终无法兑现这个愿望。我们俩与工作结下了不可解的结。都不晓得为什么那么忙，想好好编排一个旅行，总是多灾多难的。

妯娌们都为孩子们订下了6月假期的旅行，一个去阿拉斯加海上游，一个去欧洲。连干孩子们的爹娘都准备下个月去西藏旅行。让我好羡慕、好妒忌、好烦恼。我老早就拟了今年出国的大计，哪晓得老天就跟我开了这么大的一个玩笑，连累我动弹不得 :(。就连下个月想去台湾走走也不能顺顺利利进行。好失望。

我啊，简直都没辙了。Give up。。。

Into Year 2010

Already the 3rd week of 2010, and CNY is just round the corners.

I am so tired. The company is back to full work week now and I am so rest deprived without my Fridays off. Am up to my neck with work, and they seem never-ending, don't even have time to breathe. We had already forecasted work will pile up this year but never do I expect it to hit me so hard. Think I've been too laxed or lazy. The momentum is not found yet :(.

Have not been exercising a lot as well, and have been feasting since last Christmas till now. We had just celebrated my FIL's birthday yesterday. My Significant Other was asking me this morning: how about going for dinner tomorrow night to celebrate our belated 8th Anniversary. Arghh.....makan again. I think I just wanna sleep.

Seriously, am I getting old???

离家出走72个小时

为了陪一位长辈去云顶，阿宁昨晚“狠下心”抛下我，离家出走。

向来自认是个独立的人，所以起初不以为然。但是最近病得五颜六色，又咳的超厉害，因此不是很开心。可是阿宁很想了了这个心愿，我也不能太为难他，昨晚就不舍得地送他出门。

虽然现在身在公司，脑海里却惦着阿宁，想着他是否迷失在五花八门的老虎机中？

12月04日 星期五：

昨晚又咳得辛苦，早上起来，喉咙简直痛得要命。梳洗后吃了药，稍微舒服点。

感觉还可以就换了衣服，自个跑去了313@Somerset 新开张的Uniqlo(ウニクロ)。比开店的时间迟了25分钟，门前的人龙已超长，店内亦人山人海。超夸张。我也很夸张，在店内逛了好几个小时，似乎每件衣服都好，不买好像很可惜。

12月05日 星期六：

咳咳咳。。。生病最怕咳嗽了。晚上好辛苦。

阿宁今晚回来。没有他的72个小时，其实也OK。但，处于生病状态的我，内心对他有怨言。气他在我需要安慰的时候，在我身边的永远不是他。

阿宁每次都会说：生病的人最大。都是骗人的。

不开心。把它记在墙上。

一种米养百种人

Our neighbouring country just had had their General Election on last Saturday, 03rd March 2008. The big hooha is although the ruling party Barisan Nasional (BN) had won, but in reality, they had lost.

It all boils down to complacency and taking things for granted. Of course, how can politics be so simple and clean? Well, it is not my intention to touch on polictical issues here. After reading all the news, it just strikes my mind it is good to be part of the red dot.

Where on earth can you find another place that sees existence of multi-racism, multi-religion? Not that I know of, but correct me if I am wrong though. For our neighbour, Chinese and Indians are not given equal status, at all levels, including education. Couple with the clash with the Indian community right before the GE, do you think BN still has the chance to return triumphantly? I doubt so.

What really sickens me is the insolent remarks made by their "infamous" ex-premier Dr M. God, he is either senile or he loses a screw somewhere up there. To think they are in the same party, aren't they all the more should support one another, for good and for worst??? Incredulous!!

A friend of mine who has made his base in HK, rattled off list of complaints to me weeks ago. His job requires him to fly pretty frequently, so he presumably and with pomposity, thinks he has seen the BIG W-I-D-E world. He screamed into my ears (no joke) why this why that, China is so big, Singaporeans are shallow minded, blah blah blah.....Sorry, but I really do not, and could not be bothered to, remember his exact words. What I do not comprehend is: if he has seen the world, where did all these complaints stem from???

C'mon, we are not born equal, how to expect each and every one of us to have the same perspective on each matter? There are people out there who can't barely bring home a proper meal and know not what tomorrow holds for them, and you want them to think with a bigger heart? You must be joking!

We are blessed as we are able to see the various parts of the world, but that does not equate us to have a louder voice. If we are wise enough, count our lucky stars. And, if we are wiser, emulate the goodness/excellence of others and take not the dregs of the worst.

Complacency kills the wisdom. If it is a lesson to be learnt, so be it. Take it in your stride and move on. Stop being such a pompous pig, and just shut up.