最高境界

快乐来自于心理的平静，
切记人到无求品自高。

人的欲望何其多，试问有多少凡夫俗子能有无求？对人对事对物的要求无止境，这就是人存在的意义？

我，肯定不是例外。对人我有要求，对一切的一切亦有要求，自问品性如何？莫负他人即心安理得也。

似是而非

“你快乐吗？ 我很悲伤。
你悲伤吗？ 我很快乐。
你害怕吗？ 我很彷徨。
你彷徨吗？ 我很害怕。”-- 大长金

人的七情六欲是如此复杂地交错着，不曾平复过。

感情的对比，更能衬托人的情感，亦显现你我那不曾安静的心湖。

Meaningful Quote

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
An hour to like someone and,
A day to love someone - but,
It takes a lifetime to forget someone.

生病

若我说生病也是一种情趣，你赞成吗？

昨天早上起来，量了体温（为了测排卵期，早上醒来第一件必做的事），看了温度，顿时睡意全无。37.59摄氏度。不敢相信自己的眼睛，再量了一次。还是一样。叫了我的“阿宁”，他看了温度计，斩钉截铁的说：“你在发高烧！”

让他这么一喊，我霎时觉得全身发疼，疼痛似乎从骨头里痛来，全身无力，很渴睡。即使再丰富的节目，都得一一取消 ：（。

吃了早餐，吞了2颗班纳杜，我的“阿宁”半哄半推的，拉我去睡觉。哈，我还真不甘寂寞，连生病也不愿休息：P。盖了被，“阿宁”拍拍我，才甘愿入睡。

睡了几个小时，朦朦胧胧地爬了起来，肚子闹别扭，泻肚子。量了体温，烧还没退，全身四肢皆无力，吃了2个面包，又吃了2颗班纳杜，也吃了宝济丸，再倒头去睡。可是呢，睡又睡不好，感觉好热好热。冷气似乎不冷，被都给我踢掉，差点想把衣服都脱掉。

肚子又闹革命，赶紧爬起来。唉，又泻肚子。虽然并非似洪水般地泻，但也极为很不舒服，更何况还在发烧。好辛苦。“阿宁”看了我的病态，相信他也很焦虑。

“肚子饿不饿？我去给你买点吃的？喝多点水。。。你热不热？给你开冷气吧！”我的“阿宁”又递水又殷勤地伺候着。人，总是很奇怪，生病时总爱撒撒娇，我不是例外。乘机向“阿宁”撒娇，象小孩子似的，全身的疼痛当然也助了一臂之力。

“阿宁”把我照顾得无微不至，坐在电视机前面吃着他帮我买回来的鱼圆面，的确很甜蜜。

“面好不好吃？喝点汤，要不要？”真的把我当小孩子了，但我也乐在其中。

电视机一开，简直是一拔不可收拾。自己在发烧，全身的疼痛，泻肚子，甚至老爹姓什么都抛到九霄云外了。James Bond要上场了，即使在生病也该有点娱乐吧。

“本来很喜欢James Bond的，看你这个样子，我现在很不喜欢James Bond！”“阿宁”在抗议。我看着他嘟着嘴巴的样子，都觉得好好笑。我晓得他的懊恼，但也晓得他是很疼爱我的。

一口气看了2部James Bond的戏，间中也转台看投票的结果（耶，PAP又当选了！）。“阿宁”一再地叮咛我看完戏，吃了药，就得早点休息。我哪有睡意呢？睡了一整天，那还能睡？敷衍了“阿宁”，依然双眼盯着荧光幕不放。

原以为“阿宁”已去会周公了，哪知他从卧房跑出来兴师问罪。

“就知道你不会乖乖去睡，”他轻微地斥责着。

看着他好像生气的样子，相信无法有任何妥协，唯有乖乖地听话，吃了2颗班纳杜，再去会周公。

今早醒来，量了体温，烧已退，真开心。但“阿宁”还是无微不至地照顾我一整天。

谢谢你，“阿宁”，谢谢你细心的照顾。

昭告的后果

Ever since I annouced my wish/urge/plan for retirement, the one and only response is...you've guessed it: surprise.

Hmm...I am not a workaholic, so if I plan to retire now, it should not have drawn so much astonishment from people who really know me. Come to think of it, no one supports the idea! This is ludicrous, do you not think so???

My girlfriends go: "Why do you wanna retire?", "Are you sure you wanna do that?", "What are you gonna do after you retire?", "It will be boring, you know.", etc, etc. I got the gist :(.

No, I'm not swayed by their unsupportive gesture, but never expect such response when I made known to the world, on impulse. So, I ask my Significant Other, again, what he thinks of this idea of mine.

“我举双手双脚赞成！” He says. He is definitely for it coz he thinks my daily living ain't disciplined, or rather, topsy turvy. He always has no kind word when I stay up late and work up early the next day. Yes, he would rather I sleep to my fill.

"You are always sleep-deficit! How can you have slept enough?" He reprimands me. I don't wanna argue with him coz I know he has my welfare at heart. No matter the upmteen times I've told him I'm a night person and hate waking up early in the morning, I'll sleep when my bio-clock tells me so, etc etc, he can never comprehend. *Sigh*......

Anyway, I digress, a fair bit.

I am still harbouring the thought, not gonna give it up just coz my gal friends aren't for it. I do know I may find retirement a bore after a while coz ultimately I am a person who strives for adventures. Of course I won't jump on the wagon without a plan on hand. Can't imagine being a tai tai after retirement. Of course I would want to enjoy that for a fair bit :). Go shopping, at high-end shops and boutiques, go for high-tea when my legs are about to give way. Sipping my earl grey tea (argrrgh....I hate earl grey ;<), looking at life passing by. Ha, so siok :P. No?

What else can I do? Hmm......guess I really need to go and plan a bit, before I jump on the wagon.